That's what she said. And it crushed me.

I feel hurt.
I feel betrayed.
You disappointed me.
I'm taking a step back.
I told you that in confidence!!!

What exactly?
You have a secret side, that you've kept a secret... but have you really? You blame me for shit talking when everything you say to me, you say in a group setting. Conversations of your health, of your happiness, of your energy - yes we've had them. "We" being the ones you so frankly talk (and SHOW) your secret side to.

Single me out. It's ok.

I'm your friend. I get you. I understand why you're doing this.
Even if it crushes me... I get it.

You choose to believe the hype and the people that you so quickly and often tell me their serious problems and personal demons, over me.

You pick them... over me.

I'm exhausted. That's how you know I'm a friend. I've put in my heart, dedicated myself to truthful and frank conversations; the hardship of relying on one another over the gossip because I give you the benefit of the doubt! Who have you called when things are awesome, shitty and absolutely dreadful? Me.


And you are who I always call.

But believe them. These people that come to you, they have accused me of things just to have them admit later they exaggerated or lied and used my name to cohort information out of you.

I'm so twisted right now. Beyond the ability to really feel what's happening. I'm being such a hypocrite because I'm using the same forum to tell you this, just as you inform me of our demise via blog.

But... I get it. I will not fight this.

We need space.

This makes me miss being in love

Dammit.

My body rejects blue ink. This really sucks. I sat through the pain but didn't get the reward. I bled all the blue pigment away. Going to let this heal and in two week return and try for purple forget-me-nots.

200 Studs

I just bought 200 studs. Can't wait for them to arrive... I'm going to punk the shit out of stuff.

Four Roses Bourbon Rice Krispie Treats

Holy hell yes!

5 1/2 Cups Rice Krispies
1/4 tsp cinnamon
1/2 stick salted butter
2 TBSP Four Roses Bourbon
10oz marshmallows
salt to taste

Melt butter, add cinnamon, add mallows. Once smooth, quickly add bourbon and dash of salt. Mix well - add cereal. Spread in a well buttered 8x8 dish. Enjoy :)

Check it out!

A friend shared this with me today - love it!

Killer turns 28

Bam!! Killer turned 28 - a little house party with Killer Lemonade, some beer pong and tunes.

Museum by Moonlight

Pretty awesome event. It was for the 21 and over crowd at the World Forestry Center. I haven't been here since a high school field trip. Jason and I got to sample wine, beer and learned about bats.

Hello, you fool. I love you.

Everlong

By David Grohl

Hello
I've waited here for you
Everlong

Tonight
I throw myself into
And out of the red, out of her head she sang

Come down
And waste away with me
Down with me

Slow how
You wanted it to be
I'm over my head, out of her head she sang

And I wonder
When I sing along with you
If everything could ever feel this real forever
If anything could ever be this good again

The only thing I'll ever ask of you
You've got to promise not to stop when I say when
She sang

Breathe out
So I could breathe you in
Hold you in

And now
I know you've always been
Out of your head, out of my head I sang

And I wonder
When I sing along with you
If everything could ever feel this real forever
If anything could ever be this good again

The only thing I'll ever ask of you
You've got to promise not to stop when I say when
She sang

And I wonder
If everything could ever feel this real forever
If anything could ever be this good again

The only thing I'll ever ask of you
You've got to promise not to stop when I say when
She sang

We Are Young

Sorta obsessed with this.