And the shoe drops... kinda.

I sincerely try to not allow gossip get in the mix of how I feel about someone but I'm human and am not flawless. I heard some news last night about someone I keep in a special place in my heart - my first love. I heard a horrible rumor about him. Well, a mutual friend told me a story that made him not the spectacular, thoughtful, honest young man I remember him to be.

On my drive home that "Listen to your heart..." song (Roxette) starts running through my mind... Something inside me wanted to call him and ask him if it's true. But the reality is he was my high school sweetheart, he's engaged, he's this grown man with his own life that on occasion crosses my path and if he's doing or did what was confided to me, what good would my inquiring do? Who am I to even go there and start questioning what he's doing in his life?

Answer: no one.

We are friendly, but not friends. It was just so harsh to hear that this person I have so many found memories with - I get lost in remembering the sweetness and youthfulness of our teenage love - is actually this real guy, maybe even a scumbag; not some Prince Charming.

Oh well... the old high school gang is meeting up next month for a Pub Crawl. Maybe it'll come up. Maybe it won't. No matter what, I still love thinking back on those sweet times in my life - when love was so pure and love was invincible and we were so stupid to believe that our bond could get us through anything. And now to have that tainted - sorta sucked. Sorta broke my heart all over again... in a different way.

Another Weight Loss Update

Ok, we're at 16 weeks and the grand total I've lost... 11 pounds.

Eh. At least I lost weight while on vacation. That much I'm proud of.

Vegas

Ok... I don't have better pics, sorry. I spent way too much time having fun and not capturing it on camera. Hopefully once the gang shares the pics, I will have better ones to post.

(pool at the Westin)


(me - poolside)


(sorry, this one's blurry - Jessica, myself and Kaleena outside The Mirage)


($3 in the penny slots, won $12! This is the only gambling I did.)

UPDATE!! More pictures:
(me and Kaleena heading out to the pool)

(Pete and Kaleena heading out to the pool)

(me and Kaleena)

(myself, Jessica and Kaleena on our way to Tao)

(Jessica, myself and Kaleena at Cafe before hitting club Moon)


(heading to the roof top, patio party at club Moon)

(me and Kaleena partying roof top style at club Moon)


(view from the patio/roof top party at club Moon)

Dating sucks

Conversation with my male friend, age 25. Topic "dating":

him: Yeah, if she wouldn't have put out by the 3rd date, I would have bailed.
me: Really? By my standards, that's kinda slutty... or maybe I'm a prude.
him: Yeah, that's not slutty. How else would I know she's into me?

Dating sucks.

Bearforce 1

'Nuff said.

Sound off

For those of you who aren't familiar with a "sound off" it's when you make a list of shit you are fed up with, shit that annoys you, people that annoy you; it may include past, present or future people, things, conversations, trends, etc. that annoy you. I just woke up from a nap, a nap that stems from feeling generally run down and crappy today. I woke up a bit cranky and totally feel like sounding off. (Ahem...) Here it goes:

1. Gatorade - you play like you're oh so good for me but you're oh so chalked full of carbs and sugars. And yes, I know you come in a low-carb form, but my store rarely keeps the orange in stock. That is the only color, er, flavor I prefer. Gatorade go f*ck yourself.

2. Shaving - nuff said. Shaving - go f*ck yourself.

3. Washing my car - I really need to wash my car. Part of me doesn't mind washing my car but my apartment complex loves to shut off the water to the outside spouts, and not provide me with a hose. Yeah, I could pay $6 and go through the car wash but I don't want to. So, apartment building with no water outside and no hose, go f*ck yourself.

4. Chicken noodle soup - you smell like ass. Go f*ck yourself.

5. Lauryn Hill - COME OUT WITH NEW MUSIC!! (Don't go f*ck yourself. You're cool).

That's all I got. I guess I wasn't as angry as I thought. Peace out.

American Idol Tour

No, I didn't get to meet anyone cool. No, I didn't even get to watch the concert. But I did sound check and worked with the Karaoke Idol crew :)