Wednesday, August 4, 2010

And that's the way the cookie crumbles

I had dinner with Audrey... was bold enough to ask her if he asks about me.
"Not directly." She says.
"But you know he thinks about you, misses you, shit - probably looks at your Facebook page!"

I make no assumptions. I examine what is put before me - I examine the situation and consider the limited information I am given.

How do I express... this?

I tell myself he does not think about me, so I should not get wrapped up in thinking about him... or Serena. Even if she turns two this Friday and I will miss her birthday.






She isn't mine anymore. No matter how much I love her.

(exhale)

I'm looking forward to connecting with an honest man. Someone who isn't afraid to face life head on. No one is perfect - just accept your imperfections and recognize the ones that are worth tweaking with in order to mature into a more peaceful, fulfilled being.

My focus is to live consciously. I can only give out what I expect in return - doesn't mean it will happen (ha ha ha)... but I'd rather hope for the best then expect the worst.

3 comments:

The Urban Cowboy said...

Always strive for the best and never settle. He is out there, somewhere, searching for you also.

Zsuzsi said...

The Urban Cowboy says it so well: always strive for the best. And remember, things always happen for a reason: all the pain you are going through will make you stronger and wiser, even if it feels horrible right now.
Everything will be ok.
Have a nice weekend :D

Hayley Freakin' Rules said...

Thanks all! As difficult as things seem, I do look back and recall on other low moments, remembering the pain and struggle than and how I came out of it wiser.