Wednesday, August 4, 2010

And that's the way the cookie crumbles

I had dinner with Audrey... was bold enough to ask her if he asks about me.
"Not directly." She says.
"But you know he thinks about you, misses you, shit - probably looks at your Facebook page!"

I make no assumptions. I examine what is put before me - I examine the situation and consider the limited information I am given.

How do I express... this?

I tell myself he does not think about me, so I should not get wrapped up in thinking about him... or Serena. Even if she turns two this Friday and I will miss her birthday.

She isn't mine anymore. No matter how much I love her.


I'm looking forward to connecting with an honest man. Someone who isn't afraid to face life head on. No one is perfect - just accept your imperfections and recognize the ones that are worth tweaking with in order to mature into a more peaceful, fulfilled being.

My focus is to live consciously. I can only give out what I expect in return - doesn't mean it will happen (ha ha ha)... but I'd rather hope for the best then expect the worst.


The Urban Cowboy said...

Always strive for the best and never settle. He is out there, somewhere, searching for you also.

Zsuzsi said...

The Urban Cowboy says it so well: always strive for the best. And remember, things always happen for a reason: all the pain you are going through will make you stronger and wiser, even if it feels horrible right now.
Everything will be ok.
Have a nice weekend :D

Hayley Freakin' Rules said...

Thanks all! As difficult as things seem, I do look back and recall on other low moments, remembering the pain and struggle than and how I came out of it wiser.